Health, Life, Writing

I’m Not Ashamed…

Hello, bloggers!

Today’s post is probably one of the most real posts I’ve ever shared with you. I feel it’s important to be honest, to let you know who I am, to share my own story.


I’ve always had my share of stress. Most people do. A little over a year ago, I noticed a difference in myself. My anxiety had gotten worse, to the point of having panic attacks or crying fits. My migraines became severe, lasting for four or five straight days and only having a few days in between each cycle. I was absolutely miserable. No energy. Off and on appetite. I wasn’t me, and I had more bad days than good days. I didn’t understand what was going on.

After dealing with this for nearly a full year, I finally was able to see a doctor. As it turned out, my blood pressure was very high. Thinking about all of it – the anxiety, the migraines, the high blood pressure – it could all easily be related. Each issue could cause the other issues. Crazy how that works.

It’s been about three months since my first doctor visit. I’ve been several times now for follow-ups. I’m on three daily medicines, covering all my issues. (Not ashamed to admit that.) I’m still not where I need to be, but I’m getting there. I still have a lot of bad days, but I’m thankful for my doctor and his team. I’m thankful to have found people that understand me and can appreciate my ups and downs.


I say all of that to say this… It’s okay to have problems. It’s okay to have panic attacks and to cry over what feels like nothing. It’s okay to be prescribed medicine that can help you. It’s okay to talk to people, to open up, to be honest. You aren’t any less of a person. If anything, you’re more. You’ve gotten to where you are today, that shows strength and courage. Each day is a new day. I pray the Lord blesses you and helps you thru. Because I know, I’ve been there, and it isn’t easy. But you’re strong enough. You’ve got this. We’ve got this. Together, we can make it thru.

Until next time………………………… Stay Strong!

14 thoughts on “I’m Not Ashamed…”

  1. I’m so glad you went to your doctor and he was able to help you. I’ve dealt with panic attacks/anxiety/depression…the attacks are horrible. Yes it does require strength to deal with it I agree. Thanks for the honest post of a subject that isn’t talked about often.

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  2. Marlene I understand exactly ..So many times we think we have to be perfect for others. Being of emotional persuasion and also a person who over reacts to everything …I am glad you are on the mend. I have been super healthy all my life —never took a prescription and then something happened…We are all vulnerable human beings and besides you are a Libra…and that is what counts. Take good care of yourself.

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  3. I’m sorry for your troubles, Marlena and I agree with you 100%. We are all human beings and as humans we will suffer illnesses and breakdowns. Having issues is part of being human and nothing to be ashamed of. Even those of us that try to eat well, exercise regularly, and stay away from the “harmful” stuff still end up with one thing or another. That’s life. I think what’s most important is how we deal with our problems and to realize that although we are strong, self-sufficient people it’s okay to ask for help. Anxiety, depression, hypertension, and panic attacks are very real disorders that need to be addressed, taken seriously, and treated. I’m happy you’re getting help and I hope you recover quickly. ❤ xo

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  4. It is okay to take care of yourself. Lexapro had helped my panic attacks. Blood pressure medicine helps my heart. You should never be embarrassed. Sometimes, life is a little too much for us to handle alone.

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  5. Oh, boy! Do I understand anxiety. I used to get full-blown panic attacks many years ago (the 1990’s). I wasn’t eating healthy, I drank way too much alcohol (too often), and I smoked two packs of cigarettes a day. I had severe depression on top of that. What helped me tremendously was a change in diet, quitting cigarettes (I’ve been twenty years smoke-free), regular exercise, and admitting to myself the path I was traveling would eventually kill me. The biggest help for me was drawing closer to God. My faith truly saved my life. We tend to get so involved in the day to day aspects of living life — some of us even fall into the traps of unhealthy behavior — we forget to take care of ourselves. We’re given only one life here in this world. We’re not promised tomorrow. It serves us well to keep our own health in mind — even to the point of being selfish about it. Life is a gift.

    I am so glad you found answers, Marlena. I’ve had the high blood pressure issue as well. Regular (daily) exercise really helped me get that under control. Seek what works for you. God bless you.


    1. Thank you so much, Beem. I agree with everything you’ve said. And congrats on being smoke-free for 20 years. That’s fantastic!!

      I’m definitely working towards a better me, taking time for myself, taking time for my passions. The same things that relax me and make me happy. (Writing & music, mostly.) I plan on making this a better year, a healthier year. 🙂

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